this is my first weekend “trap” inside this city – a city who call a “stranger” to me.
everything, every event happened too fast, too sudden and too surprisingly. i never thought i will be living here as what it is now. alright! if I’m planning for it, i never expected all this were happened within 1 month.
events that brought me to where I am now:
feb 02 to 04 – trip down to singapore with the main purpose: celebrating one of my dear old friend’s birthday. it has been 3 years i never came to singapore for him since the last time. the atmosphere and feeling are good. while learning more about living in singapore when having an opportunity meeting up some of my ex-course mates who are currently working in singapore as well. the end of the trip, something “zapping” into my heart: I should think about coming down Singapore to work.
feb 05 to 10 – seriously thinking about going to singapore to work. i was non-stop getting comments and feedback from some of my good friends. the main emotion issue i need to solve before making the decision is leaving home, leaving my parent and leaving what i was having – car, standard living environment, good career in which the company management is really appreciate my works. everything is actually sounded very perfect. The question is am i ready to left all this and re-start again? collecting opinions from friends and coincidently on early of the morning when I was driving to work, “Light & Easy” was played this “quote of the day” – “Thinking without an action, you never will achieve what you are thinking about”. finally, i made up my mind to give it a try in applying some jobs online.
feb 12 to 13 – getting some feedback from Jobstreets in which my application is failed. i was start to worry, will I get any jobs in singapore with the basic salary i requested. if i don’t getting such offer, why bother should i be leaving.
feb 14 – valentine’s day. just another day of the year, i thought it would be nothing special to me. yet, while driving home after work, i received a call from singapore. my first thought was actually thinking would it be my best friend? But, i’m wrong. it is extraordinary. a career is offered by grand hyatt singapore!
feb 15 – first interview conduct in KL. they were asking me for second interview in singapore itself, after CNY which is 26th March 07.
feb 16 – feb 25 – Struggling weeks. i was like getting the job with 50% success. i start to feel scare and worry about lots of things – leaving home for don’t know how long, financially and the most to make myself clear: the main reason I want to go there? It is because of wishing for a new environment? Or such a good career offer in a big organization over the world? Or because of him?............... i know it’s my own responsible to make this question clear before really make the decision. all of my good friends are concern the most that I might be as silly as 5 years before. their one and only reminder, “never go there because of him!”
feb 26 – interview. i still have not got the answer to the most important question. i just told myself, once i stepped into the Hotel, i will put myself at the best for the interview. i bring the most confident of myself. i think of no others. finally, i got the job with never negotiate basic salary i requested. i’m happy for they never deduct the basic salary. as it is prove i deserve at such amount. they give me what i requested. yet, i don’t feel really happy either in the situation, i got the job. my feeling was all the way “numb”. i know i’m very scare deep down. i know, i got no turning point at this time. i got no one at this place. even tough, he is here. but, we just best friend – line was draw clear. it was really another “turning point” of my life – a job in singapore, and love problems.
feb 27 – back home. waiting for my work permit being approved and planning for the next step. at this point, i do hope to leave as soon as possible. for being selfish of planning if i could get to singapore before may 07, in which i give myself a chance to have him to celebrate my birthday as he has been missed it in these 6 years.
march 01 – in sudden, news of my dad being attacked by stroke bring my world turning around. i feel such a bad daughter of leaving home at this time. i know i will absolutely miss my dad a lots if i’m leaving. my emotion was totally out of control. i really don’t know what to do. am I doing the right move?
march 02 to march 14 – settling down my dad’s stroke problems. talk with my parent. and my dad is really supporting my leaving as he doesn’t hope with his problem affecting my decision and my future career. i have make up my mind after taking consideration of all the issues around. i can’t help much if i’m around for him. all my family need now is financial support.
march 15 – GHS called and confirming my work permit has been approved and they are willing to buy me off from my current company by paying them my two month notices. i need to leave immediately.
march 26 – Here am I.
april 02 – 1st day in Grand Hyatt Singapore.
that’s the summary of events happened to me within 1 month. i still can’t take it as reality. i am in singapore now. i’m living in singapore. am i dreaming? every night since i’m here i do make a call back for my parent. i miss them a lot. and tonight especially extra miss them as i do feels very lonely. after the called made, i cried. i still try to pursued and telling myself, i do not make a wrong decision.
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