"Aiyo...walk faster la..you very aunty la.."
"See..see...you walk very dangerous la. Never look at people. Always 'bang' on people."
"Eh..careful on your ponytail la. Turn you head slowly. Your ponytail will hit people."
...Typical sentences he loves to comment on me whenever we are hanging out together. Especially in the MRT stations. Sometimes, I will feels pretty upset because he loves to said it in public. However, lately, I will miss those so much. I will smile or even laugh on myself whenever I thought of that. Feels his shadow is always besides me.
I believe in August 07 onwards, most of the things will change. We, of course will hang out even more lesser. I will miss those time even more. I don't know how to exactly describe this feelings. Again...I lost him.
Lately, oftenly heard from friends saying the sentence "love is blind". Love can be so blind that we might hurting our own friends without any choices, all because the word of LOVE her / him. He claimed, I should be understand more about it. Yet, one things he does not even know......if love is really that blind...I would not tell this another guy that I will not give up in everything that currently I have give my best to him. Once I have been struggling so much in highlighting the fact that I will not take our friendship for granted because this guy (who might have be my someone special now). I even put into the criteria, if any man who want to be with me, they have to accept the fact, I will not because of this man and break the chain of friendship I having with him and this man should have no power to take all my best on him.
I always believe it's been 6 years, our 'friendship' wouldn't be blind-off cause of love. However, he prove me wrong. He would do anything to everything for the reason of love. I start to feels, he is no longer the person I know so far. Our 'friendship' being put into the cold storage. We do it together - on the purpose I guess.
I really does not know how to work it out. Oftenly, fail in 'resentment' and all the question with 'why?', 'how could he?'... I really does not understand why love can be so blind in him. I have always been trust in him, his value & believe.
He rather choose to lose this 6-years friendship (by continuously hurting and disappointing me in all events), in order to win her heart. He even claimed..if really that is the choice, it alright to lose this friend who have been love, care and trust him for passed 6 years. Love is consider too powerful or too blind or even too stupid to live with?
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