bad day?

dear boo,

it was really a tough and super stress day for me.

thought that it will pretty fine and could somehow able to "sneak" out to celebrate my manager's birthday - tea-break.

1st thing in the morning right after i had changed my uniform, my 2nd boss mobitalk me requesting me to attend exco-briefing. (as big boss is in business trip, my boss is on exam leave and this 2nd boss need to bring his son to doctor). i was surprised! and at the same time super scary. imagine to sitting down at the round table with leather executive chairs reporting to all the exco member from ALL the departments! ..he is really kidding me.. (zappp back to reality); my 2nd boss is requesting me to prepare all necessary data and get ready for all the information. his main concern, "don't simply sit at any chair - there will be designated chair for everyone"

905hrs - 1st exco member went in surprisingly seeing me and ya..of course without he doubting he went into wrong meeting room, i explained to him why i'm there.

915hrs - exco morning briefing start. i was the last one to report and i don't feel that nervous because some of the exco members also attending the weekly projects meeting. so, we know each other quite well. the best things are, they do remember my name. :)

exco morning briefing went smoothly - not big ticket items; but, back to my spa project budget issue. dato asking me to arrange a meeting to discuss about the worksheet i done together with my boss night before with taking account some cost engineering which done by the tenderer.

so, i went ahead to arrange the meeting. things go "ti-ti-ta-ta"...

1230hrs - dato called me and "scolded" (lecture) me of not being do work on-hand - delaying, not 'kan-cheung', etc. i got no way to defense, but to apologize. i know i can't fight-back. deep inside, i know i didn't do anything wrong and i have done my part and due diligent. i really don't feel guilty. i cried after that. feels so bad. at the point of time, i really do want to ring you up and tell you the whole story. but, i remembered you told me once,

"now what you have to do is to rectify whatever tasks that have been commented. get things done. save the time of being sad, down and complaining to others. like me, no matter how sad i am, i will only complaint or talk about it at the end of the day."

i hold myself back together and arrange whatever is necessary and i prepared myself for the meeting at 1430hrs.

1430hrs - project budget meeting. both datos were there. i did my best answering all that i know and they did not comment much after my explanation but to tidy the whole worksheet because it is pretty messy. (at least, i have the chance to explain the budget cost).

1515hrs - finance director called me to go to her office to sort the worksheet together. at first, she don't feels comfortable with my present (i'm still an assistance so-to-speak). however, after a while sitting with her with my explanation, she gets pretty nice and friendly with me. she even told me what to do and what not to do; to think how the bosses and owner think; to question yourself what are the expected questions that owner will post; what to present and not; how to make the figures talking to the bosses. she really taught me a lots during the session with her until 1745hrs. finally, we gets everything done in the 'perfect way'. we are very happy and she is confidently leave the whole worksheet for me to explain to dato on tomorrow morning.

1800hrs till 2030hrs - re-configure every figures and explain to my bosses (my boss + iL) through email. hope my boss could understand what has happened and he will go to the battle together with me on tomorrow morning.

i really don't know is this still consider a "bad day" for me? put it in another thought, this day i have really learned a lots - in a tough way, i guess.