dear boo,
happy belated birthday!
i did not forget your birthday on the 9th feb - at 00:00am, i was driving while shouted "chinyoong, happy birthday! wishing you have a blessing year ahead. all dreams come true. hope you are happy and blissful." - hope so much these words could be delivered through air and heard by you.
the first things on my mind when i was awake in the morning was wishing you again, "happy birthday". i did not forget till the end of this special day. it was hard. almost failed to drop you a birthday sms wishes. i guess, this is the first time since our 7 years friendship, this friend seems like forgotten your birthday. - i did not, boo -
on 22nd of this month - also 16 of 1st month of chinese lunar calendar is your 27th birthday. i did not forget. every single things about you is nailed on my mind.
boo, how is your birthday passed? i still hope you will have the best time. wishing you a wonderful year ahead. in all aspects.
take good care.
sun yat fai lok! - chinese (cantonese) sang ngit fai lok - chinese (hakka) otanjou-bi omedetou gozaimasu! - japanese selamat hari jadi - malay bonna fete - french
2 comments:
FYI, he's doing well and I think all he wishes for his birthday is to move on with life. I don't know how or when are you ever getting back to your senses? Is it because of your unwillingness to let go of the past? It seems like it. As Chin Yoong's friend, I just can't bear seeing him being tortured mentally and it has taken its toll on his physical as well.
You keep saying that you are sorry. I hope that you mean it and take full responsibility of it. Action speaks louder than words. Live your own life fully. It's not the end of the world without him. You still have your family, your friends, your job & your colleagues. Can you imagine your loved ones hurting when they know or see you like this? Can you bear to hurt them? How would you and they feel? Can they be at peace knowing your situation? Especially when you are so far away in Singapore? You are letting them down.
You claim that you love him, but from the way I see it you are hurting and torturing him. Can you see that? Can you bear to see or even hear that he's sad or unhappy because of your every action?
You think that being by his side, attending to his every needs is loving him. Do you know that you are giving him pressure instead? You claim that you do not want anything from him for whatever that you are doing for him. That's a lie. You are hoping that he'll come back to your side. That is also another pressure for him - to be together with you again. There's no going back to the past.
Chin Yoong is so kind hearted that I think you are using him. All he thinks was to help you as a friend when you were in Singapore working. All the things that he has done was for a friend. His intention from the beginning to the end was for a friend. But look at what this "friend" had done to him.
Him moving out of your life is the LAST STRAW! Because of your stubornness to let go, you have lost a friend. Think about it. Why doesn't he want to have anything to do with you? I know you hope to see and talk to him again. That will only happen when you have learnt to let go, take good care of yourself, love your surroundings, but most importantly love yourself and everyone around you. The most important thing is to love yourself. Seek help if you must. This is your life, not his.
By treatening him, giving him more pressure, hurting not only yourself but those who are around you who cared for you are only making matters worse. If you continue doing so, then you'll never be friends again.
thank you for lolabunny comment. i believe this comment will definitely hurt moomoo.
there is many things have happened where she did not put it in writing. only between them, they know the best.
i don't know how much do lolabunny understand the whole story.
nobody is right or wrong in the relationship. is how forgiveness place into every situation.
she did not lie to him.
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