high fever of me

dear boo,

i had a very sick weekend. high fever and restless night.

it felt so suffer and torture as nobody was there taking care of me. few times, i really would like to call you up and asking for your loving gestures. - it might be worthless - i whispered to myself to kill my week intention.

went for 2 times of western doctor and 2 times of traditional chinese medicine doctor. well, it did not break the previous record of 5 times visit and mc for 5 days continuously. had been laying on the bed - helpless and nobody care whether i am alive or death. i dragged myself awake in the midnight to eat medicine, boiled hot water.. nobody was there to buy me foods, but myself to look for it.

i miss you a lots. i went to ang mo kio yesterday afternoon to buy the fish porridge. i remembered how enjoyable the moment we had together while eating our fav porridge all times. are you still visiting that stall? the uncle wasn't there when i were there.

i know you always want me to be strong and to take care of myself. and...this time around, i strive hardly to recover from the devil fever. i know once i'm recover from this, i'm a step further of becoming more indepedent and strong. ...and i definitely know..this will make you proud.

boo, summer is going to end soon. fall season will be greeted beautifully with the autumn leaves. same to me, high fever going to recover soon, and me..will smile as cheerfully as before too.. ...for you...