stick with u - pussycat dolls

i don't wanna go another day,
so i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
seems like everybody's breaking up
throwing their love away,
but i know i got a good thing right here
that's why i say (hey)

[Chorus:]
nobody gonna love me better
i must stick with you forever.
nobody gonna take me higher
i must stick with you.
you know how to appreciate me
i must stick with you, my baby.
nobody ever made me feel this way
i must stick with you.

i don't wanna go another day
so i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
see the way we ride in our private lives,
ain't nobody getting in between.
i want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
and I say

[chorus]

and now
ain't nothing else i can need (nothing else i can need)
and now
i'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
i got you,
we'll be making love endlessly.
i'm with you (baby, i'm with you)
baby, you're with me (baby, you're with me)

so don't you worry about
people hanging around,
they ain't bringing us down.
i know you and you know me
and that's all that counts.
so don't you worry about
people hanging around,
they ain't bringing us down.
i know you and you know me
and that's why i say

"sprained my fingers"

dear boo,

you were 'home' again - probably yesterday or today. you took all the letters away. you still left the room untidy. everytime open the door, all the memories seems like happening yesterday - so real, so fresh - time when we watched csi, american next top models, heroes, ugly betty; catching up some funny videos posted in youtube; rent dvds during weekends night; drafting your report till 3am when we both only able to gets most 4 hours rest; pillow fights; fashion shows; uplifting each other every time we encounter challenges in our life.

i still appreciate deeply these times we had spent together. nothing else now - but i miss you.

i have been "appear offline" in msn since you left. i don't have the answer why i'm doing so. last night, first time since i saw you online. tempted to drop you a line of keeping in touch. but, something was holding me back from doing so. i guess you were in the office and you only left around 9pm. really hope you are fine there - proper meals and proper rest.

saw you online again this evening with the caption "sprained my fingers... =("; you left around 730pm, i guess you have a dinner appointment.

how are you, boo? everything sailing smoothly? why you will sprained your fingers? it is pain? how's work? how well you have done in the appraisal and your ex-gratia? are you satisfy? what's your career planning?

boo, i still wish to see you again. do you still remember me?

sick again

dear boo,

it's been few days i did not drop any blog. was a very busy week. i even missed the fountain wishes. heart just can't stop thinking about it.

last saturday morning, you came back here and packed all stuff away. heart feel pain each time knowing you did stepped into this house again. was having high fever during the weekend again. too much pain each time thinking about you are not around taking care of me.

i miss you.

how are you boo?

missing you

dear boo,

the feeling of missing is getting so real and deep these few days. i don't know why.

i cried last night to sleep. i know it is the tear of missing you. it is going to be almost 1 month soon, we did not keep in touch since. i miss you.

many times i really hope i could have the courage to call or sms you. but, i know, what's the point? you said you got nothing to talk to me anymore. there ain't nothing till you still don't want to see me. i miss you.

i don't know how many things i have missed from you life. - each detailing..
i don't know will you somehow did think of me.
i don't know will we be seeing each other again.
i don't know will we become a stranger to each other soon.

all i know about is the prayer of blessing into your life is never been decrease since you left.

i miss you. even just a friend. you still meant so much for you.

hope you will read this.

love takes time

dear boo,

it's ~another saturday~ again.

yes. i went to suntec wealth fountain again. making the same wish and same dedication. again, this time round, the dj read the dedication out with few comments.. "..i have the same dedication as per last week".."where does boo goes?".."hope they will really see other again"..

the dj played the song i picked this week - love takes time by mariah carey. when the dedication was being displayed, i could hear people surrounding me reading the sentence out word by word. i just staring at the dedication and enjoying the song.

..i do miss you..

where are you boo?
how are you boo?
how's your work, boo?
..do you think of me as well boo?



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love takes time lyric
oh, ohhhhhh, oh, I am...
i had it all
but I let it slip away
couldn't say I treated you wrong
now I wander around
feeling down and cold
trying to believe that you're gone

chorus:
love takes time
to heal when you're hurting so much
couldn't see that I was blind
to let you go
i can't escape the pain
inside
'cause love takes time
i don't wanna be here
i don't wanna be here
alone

losing my mind
from this hollow in my heart
suddenly I'm so incomplete
lord I'm needing you now
tell me how to stop the rain
tears are falling down endlessly

bad day?

dear boo,

it was really a tough and super stress day for me.

thought that it will pretty fine and could somehow able to "sneak" out to celebrate my manager's birthday - tea-break.

1st thing in the morning right after i had changed my uniform, my 2nd boss mobitalk me requesting me to attend exco-briefing. (as big boss is in business trip, my boss is on exam leave and this 2nd boss need to bring his son to doctor). i was surprised! and at the same time super scary. imagine to sitting down at the round table with leather executive chairs reporting to all the exco member from ALL the departments! ..he is really kidding me.. (zappp back to reality); my 2nd boss is requesting me to prepare all necessary data and get ready for all the information. his main concern, "don't simply sit at any chair - there will be designated chair for everyone"

905hrs - 1st exco member went in surprisingly seeing me and ya..of course without he doubting he went into wrong meeting room, i explained to him why i'm there.

915hrs - exco morning briefing start. i was the last one to report and i don't feel that nervous because some of the exco members also attending the weekly projects meeting. so, we know each other quite well. the best things are, they do remember my name. :)

exco morning briefing went smoothly - not big ticket items; but, back to my spa project budget issue. dato asking me to arrange a meeting to discuss about the worksheet i done together with my boss night before with taking account some cost engineering which done by the tenderer.

so, i went ahead to arrange the meeting. things go "ti-ti-ta-ta"...

1230hrs - dato called me and "scolded" (lecture) me of not being do work on-hand - delaying, not 'kan-cheung', etc. i got no way to defense, but to apologize. i know i can't fight-back. deep inside, i know i didn't do anything wrong and i have done my part and due diligent. i really don't feel guilty. i cried after that. feels so bad. at the point of time, i really do want to ring you up and tell you the whole story. but, i remembered you told me once,

"now what you have to do is to rectify whatever tasks that have been commented. get things done. save the time of being sad, down and complaining to others. like me, no matter how sad i am, i will only complaint or talk about it at the end of the day."

i hold myself back together and arrange whatever is necessary and i prepared myself for the meeting at 1430hrs.

1430hrs - project budget meeting. both datos were there. i did my best answering all that i know and they did not comment much after my explanation but to tidy the whole worksheet because it is pretty messy. (at least, i have the chance to explain the budget cost).

1515hrs - finance director called me to go to her office to sort the worksheet together. at first, she don't feels comfortable with my present (i'm still an assistance so-to-speak). however, after a while sitting with her with my explanation, she gets pretty nice and friendly with me. she even told me what to do and what not to do; to think how the bosses and owner think; to question yourself what are the expected questions that owner will post; what to present and not; how to make the figures talking to the bosses. she really taught me a lots during the session with her until 1745hrs. finally, we gets everything done in the 'perfect way'. we are very happy and she is confidently leave the whole worksheet for me to explain to dato on tomorrow morning.

1800hrs till 2030hrs - re-configure every figures and explain to my bosses (my boss + iL) through email. hope my boss could understand what has happened and he will go to the battle together with me on tomorrow morning.

i really don't know is this still consider a "bad day" for me? put it in another thought, this day i have really learned a lots - in a tough way, i guess.

froggie dear froggie

dear boo,

it was a pretty tough working day for me - managing a difficult people (one of the manager); failure of the sound insulation to my temporary gym project; issue of not matched bricks to the bar column insulation project; and the list goes. everything seems to go hair-wire. - sad -

however, after the weekly projects meeting and when thought about the froggie that i sent for dry cleaning on last sunday - 30 dec 07, i feel something i should be happy for.

day become more brighter when i called up the laundry shop and telling me the froggie is ready for collection - which it should be yesterday. i totally leave all my unsolved projects issue behind; looking forward to see my "clean" froggie.

it has been 6 years plus, it never been washed. *yikes* *eeee* *yucky* ...yea...and i don't know where i found the "courage" to bring the froggie to wash. it's not i'm lazy or stingy. is because i really scare it will spoil the froggie. we don't know what will happened right?

taking the risk, i brought it to the laundry shop in junction8. feel bit "shy" at first, but, i just pulled out the froggie from a paper bag. the lady was like..."ohh...a soft toy ha... let's see" (by pressing the calculator), she said "umm..this cost sgd 22.40 ya" and i said, "ok" (because i have asked before roughly how much it cost). Doubtfully, she looked at me and say, "it is very expensive leh...you sure???"...i smiled and replied..."yes.." ..she noted and process the documentation. "you only can collect it next sunday." she continued. i was like "huh, so long it take?? can it be any earlier??" "no, miss. this is our normal duration for collection." after i made the payment, i just left quietly. deep inside my heart, i do really hope, the froggie will be alright.

waited for whole week, finally yesterday night reached, i went to the laundry shop and claimed for the froggie. the lady can't find the froggie even by searching for the whole shop. i was eagerly stand there and waiting for her answer.."where is my froggie?"

after 5 minutes of searching and confirming, she told me the factory still not bring the froggie back to the shop. she will check with the factory and ensuring me i could get back the froggie by tomorrow night. i was like, "you sure of that? last week you told me only took 7 days. nothing went wrong to the soft toy right?"
"yes. we will call them later." i looked at her and disappointed said "please, check for me and i need to have back the soft toy by tomorrow night, ok?"
"yes, you will. what colour is the soft toy?"..."umm....green?!"
"ok, what is that actually?"..i start to feel bit shy again.."fr-og?!"..."uh..it's a frog?" "ya..just the head of the frog"...she smiled a bit and said, "thanks, it is easier to check with my factory"..then, i laughed, "thanks.."

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today, 750pm - junction8, laundry shop
"hi..i called just now. would like to take this" - the receipt 'customer copy' is shown to her.
she just took a glance of the receipt and quickly said "oh, that frog ha! ok, wait ya!"
..."you sound very 'kan-cheung' with this ha?" she commented.
"ya..it has been sleeping with me for almost 6 years plus." i took the froggie from her that wrapped in a nice clear covered plastic bag.
"so..you hugged it every night, it isn't?"...i just smiled means "yes.."
"ok. thanks! bye bye!"

i just leave happily...looking at the froggie - it is in good condition.

it smell better of course...

i miss you

dear boo,

it was another saturday - without you around.

i went to suntec - again - making the same wish and dedication. last night the dedication was "to: boo from: moo hope we will see each other again. i miss you" with the song dedication, "big girl don't cry from fergie". this time, this dedication was read out by the dj.

it was a raining night. crowded. super crowded and the fountain was circled by students from victorion junior school as part of their orientation. they performed 6 dancing songs under the rain. it was quite cool and enjoyable to see their "young" spirit. all the tourists were amazed to see their performance as well - rather *wild things* to do. - when we were still young -

i miss you.

communication thoughts

dear boo,

would like to share some events that i have seen and heard for the day - 3rd day of year 08.

morning - in the mrt - journey from newton to orchard
a dark, gloomy mrt tunnel turn into something to look at. part of the wall were decorated with the tvs advertisement panel. very interesting. one of the ad would be m&m chocolates! if you are staying in the red line, i believe you should have seen that. - m&m - remind me of times i was so craved for as part of the stress management and you just kept on complaining that what's on earth this woman will eat chocolate first thing in the morning before going to work.
http://www.marketing-interactive.com/news/4363

evening - orchard's mrt underground passageway
during these time - everyday, there is a blind man will sit there - at the same spot - playing music instruments and sing different songs. today, he sang "i swear" from boyz ii men. it was really a heart-catching song - for me at least. everytime walking passed this place, me myself will automatically channeling myself in hearing what he has for "us" - mrt pedestrian - students, workers, parents, lovers and even tourists. he never let the passageway gets silent. he has a wonderful voice to sing whatever songs.

evening - toa payoh's underground passageway
there is this beggar which has no arm at all and there is a pair of junior school students - a boy and a girl. both of them was walking in front of me and suddenly this girl "talking" to this boy something like - "look, that man has no arms at all" - in their sign language. the boy simply reply to her with another set of sign language; while both of them curiously keep on looking at the beggar even though they had stepped on the going-up escalator - silences between them. they did not "communicate" much, but communicated "enough" of what they want to share to each others.

then-after, it make me thought things that happened between us. maybe we have communicate too much because we can "talk" - expressing ourselves better. maybe that's the reason why, we did not communicate for almost 2 weeks now. and you claimed there are nothing we need to talk about - we have talked all.

too little of communication = we will lost someone important
too much of communication = we will still lost someone important
communicate what is enough = we would maintain someone important

brewerkz - our fav salad

dear boo,

just another salary earning day...

how's your position as building executive goes for the day? i feel quite "nice" today even though was running around and time seems not enough for everything. in the midst of my busy schedules, my boss mobitalk me and requesting me to go back office to meet him and iL - "urgently". i thought what has happened and what have i done wrong - again.. hmm..

come from nowhere, iL was praising my effort in work in front of my boss. he recognize my work and telling my boss of my efficiency in getting tasks on hand done. - i was like..okie..then? it just that! iL just deliberating and he even say "thank you" - i was like...oh, okie! totally dumb - ..that's what "urgently" for?

i just smiled at heart while walking out from iL's office and at that point of time i really wish to tell you about this. i feel so great that - finally - i got to prove i'm different from the project engineer, cH. that's the belief you always have in me. that's the encouragement you always remind me whenever i got the downtime in the projects management.

sometimes, a simple acknowledgment is really worth all that you know you should deserve for.

boo, thank you. if we are still like before, for sure tonight we will going for our favorite salad in brewerkz as celebration.

unorganize 'missing' blog

dear boo,

new year celebration ended. today, is already the 2nd day of the new year. feels much like "just another day". ..exhausted..tired after knock-off from work.

how are you recently? it's been quite a while did not hear you complaining about the workplace - boss(es), colleague(s), contractor(s) and tenant(s). the challenges of the waterproofing, landscape, claims, contract, etc... miss the updates.

time really passed fast. it is going to be 2 weeks, we did not keep in touch. miss catching dinner with you.

are you able to catch up the finale of the pussycat dolls tonight? miss those time, we ate breads as dinner while enjoying the show.

..brain half-death now.. even though life still goes on, i know, i still miss you a lots.

better single than sorry

dear boo,

i just completed reading this self-help book "better single than sorry" by jennifer scheff. i never doubt this is really the right book for me to read, in which i simply picked up from the popular book shelves. it does make me understand to live life as single. a lots of encouragement i have gained from the book. however, i wouldn't deny it does not completely make me forget about the hurt and wouldn't denying myself from missing you. it just make me realizing i have to really love myself and responsible with my own happiness than, devoting it to a man.

after this, i will continue discover another book with title: "the secret of letting go" by guy finley.

i will take care.

'08 countdown

dear boo,

5.4..3..2..1..happy new year! it is already the 1st day of the brand new year 08. to many people, new year is a new start. probably, it means the same to you.

i spent whole night "half-awake-half-death" in my workplace till 3am this morning. counting down with "high-class" people in the lobby. people who attended the party looks very enjoyed and "high" after few glasses of free-flow wine. they danced whole night.

during the countdown, i really don't feel anything at all. it's true - it just another reason for people to gets dressed and party wild. wishing unknown people with the same greeting. -fake-

i just hang around with my close colleagues. we even went to brix to chill out after the exhausted day (working since 9am in the morning). it was cool to be in a place where people know you - free drinks and colleagues who are friendly enough to hug you and kiss on you cheek - yikes!.. i can't recall how many hugs i have received, especially from guys. -it just the western culture- ..i need to practice it and used to it as i am part of the international management.

party end and life is goes on.