"what if" and "perhaps"

dear boo,

it has been only about 2 weeks, but, it seems like almost few months now. .. i think .. i'm falling in love with someone who i never met, someone who .. ..i don't know am i being naive - again.

living in the fairy tales world (imagination) - claimed to be gals' thought on the relationship perceptions. being thinking too much and worrying too much - claimed to be gals' general instinct only when she really cares about something. ... i really doesn't know, should i be continuing in the fairy tales world or...continue worry about how things goes. -complicated-

he is still nursing the wound of the past relationship. we have an understanding to only meet up after he is fully recover. ..we both doesn't know when.. ..but, i could feel that we both looking forward to this day.

my best friend's theory; "what if.." ...what if he is not recovering? what if he needs another 1 year to recover? what if we will never meet up?.. ..will i be the one who gets the hurt the most at the end of everything. i really don't know. perhaps am trying not to think about it by keep on telling myself, i can't falling in love with him. the purpose of my appearance is only to be there supporting and encouraging him for the recovery.

...perhaps one day, i will disappear from his life. perhaps, that would be the day either he will care or he wouldn't care at all. ..perhaps one day, we will be together..

it's all..about.."what if" and "perhaps" for now...

"some people come in your life for a reason, a season or a life time"